I'm living a loser's life but I'm not a loser. (AskVoat)
I know that I'm smart and I know that I'm hard working and I know I have discipline.
Yet my life has been nothing but me getting screwed over and me trying and falling. I know that you're supposed to blame yourself if your life sucks but I don't. Because I've done a lot of the stuff that you're supposed to do and it didn't work out for me. I just don't fit into this society. I feel like I never had a chance to be my own person when everyone else around me has and it bothers me because I really do think I'm an above average person yet somehow I'm living the ultimate loser life.
People say that you should just focus on your family but that's one of my greatest losses. I don't really have a family.
If there is a judgment day and I'm judged by my works I will say what the hell did you want me to do you didn't give me anything to work with and you screwed me over at every opportunity. I spent my whole life in isolated anguish and desolation as people around me were given resources and community to work with. I tried but I never had a shot. I was set up for failure.
I try to think what can I do to make my life have some net positive effect on the world because at this point I'm just so angry and bitter I feel like I'm making the world a worse place.
I know in the grand scheme of things I really don't matter at all and very few people do. But at the very least I don't want to make things worse.
*Mandatory disclaimer: my mental health is fine and I'm in no way suicidal I'm just thinking about life.